Title: Us Against The World (Short Ver)
Pairing: KyuMin
Rating: PG
Genre: Friendship, Romance, Angst
Summary: Kyuhyun and Sungmin decided to come clean to the members about their relationship. The reactions that they received weren't something pleasant to the ears.
Kyuhyun's POV
Nobody believed, nobody cared - because it was just us and them. From the start, it was just them asking but not understanding. “What are we doing? Why are we fighting so hard?” they asked. Asking, for them is easy. Understanding however, they don’t bother.
It doesn’t matter to me. It never mattered how they look at me –at us. Even if you allow me to redo history, I will still come back to you. Even if I am thrown another choice, I will still choose you.
It was raining on my birthday. It was 2007 when I took your hand and 2009, when we came clean. Standing hand in hand in front of 13 other men, we told them. I remember vividly how loud your voice rang, demanding attention. I remember clearly how you looked them in the eye and said with an air of confidence I didn’t know you had, “We’re dating.”
Only Ryeowook and Donghae stood up. They took your hand and pulled you into a hug. I didn’t let your hands go. However, I did shrink back when 11 other pair of eyes stared at us and our intertwined fingers.
“Why?” the first question hit me in the face.
You looked at me with those soft eyes of yours and my heart melted – because those eyes were for me. “I love him,” you said. Your eyes were still on me and I couldn’t look away.
“Min-” your best friend called you.
When your eyes left mine, I felt empty – as if I could be crumpled. “Yes?” you answered.
“I’ll talk to him,” he said – Hyukjae.
Hyukjae pulled you away and my eyes stared as your hands left mine as well. A tear fell. You looked back and smiled at me. Suddenly, the world was right again for just that small moment.
But when you left, even with Ryeowook and Donghae by my side, I felt small. I was small – the magnae. “It’s not right,” our leader told me. His voice was ice sharp and demanding. It wasn’t the same. It wasn’t as soft as your voice.
“Hyung,” both Ryeowook and Donghae said.
“You know it isn’t right,” Shindong spoke up. I almost cried. Donghae's hands around mine weren’t warm like yours.
“I love him,” I told them. Even now, I am ashamed that I couldn’t say it with the confidence that you have. “I love him so much, hyung.”
“You can’t,” Jungsu repeated. “Your mother-”
“She isn’t the one dating Sungmin,” Ryeowook snapped. Your eyes turned to your bestfriend and gave him a weak, grateful smile. “Even if you look at this again, it istheir choice. They are allowed to date. Even if you guys don’t approve, you don’t have to do this to them.”
“Hyung, what if it’s you?” Donghae asked in a small voice. “What if-”
“But it isn’t me!” Jungsu shouted. “I know I won’t do it! Even if I have a simple crush on another man, I would ignore it! It isn’t right!”
Donghae looked at our leader. He was so innocent and pure. I know then why you chose him of all people to be your roommate back then. He had his heart in the right place even before he knew it.
“I won’t leave him,” I said. “I can’t leave him. He’s my life and-”
“Enough,” Siwon said. Our bubbling Siwon, who was always so gentle and happy, had snapped at me. Despite my frightened heart, I stood my ground. I wasn’t going to lose you.
“You’re a Christian, hyung,” Henry said softly. His eyes were as frightened as mine. I didn’t know why.
“I know,” I answered him.
“Then why-”
“It was never a choice,” I cut across him. “Loving Sungmin was never a choice.”
They didn’t answer me. They merely stared again, as if looking through me. “I said no!” a shout came from inside Hyukjae's room. We turned our heads. It was your voice.
You came out a second later followed by a terrified yet angry Hyukjae. Donghae went over to stand beside Ryeowook as you neared us. When you took my hand, I breathed a sigh of relief. The members noticed.
“We told you because we didn’t want to lie – not to all of you,” you said. “But if I had known that the people we trust so dearly were this hateful, I wouldn’t have forced Kyuhyun into this. I am telling you – all of you. I am not going to leave Kyuhyun. Neither will he leave me. This, I have trust in him.”
I watched in awe as the gentle you grew angrier by the second. I watched as you proclaimed your love for me. A part of me hated myself because I couldn’t be as brave as you.
“Take him away from me and I’ll die,” you said. “I am not asking for your permission. I don’t need to know that you have approved of us to love him. I have loved him – from the very minute I saw him. You have no idea how it felt like to think that I lost him. You have no idea how painful it is for us. Even if you can’t accept it, ignore it.”
“Then why did you tell us?” Jungsu hissed. He was angry but an angered you couldn’t be beaten down.
“Because I trust- no, I trusted all of you,” you muttered. Your voice was soft but it had that venom in it that I saw the members flinched. “I must have had it all wrong, all along.”
“Yes,” Jungsu nodded. His eyes were glaring at me.
“Not Kyuhyun,” you shook your head. Your voice was suddenly calm that even I was frightened. “Kyuhyun was never a mistake. He will never be one. But you – all of you, I thought I knew you better.”
You gave Ryeowook and Donghae a small smile before you pulled me out of our dorm. I felt their eyes stared at our backs but you didn’t let me go. I heard Donghae's small sob as the door slammed shut. I was sure you did too. I saw your shoulders stiffened- something that always happens when you wanted to cry.
“Ming,” I said softly. You tightened your grip on my hand.
I wanted to ask where we were going but I decided that if it was with you, I wouldn’t care. And so, I followed you quietly. You didn’t let me pull my hand back even as we walked the streets. I should have been afraid, but I wasn’t.
You brought me over to your brother’s apartment. He was already waiting for us. I was confused. When the door closed behind me, your hands left mine as your brother flung himself at you. Sungjin was an angel in my eyes back then.
“You told them?” he asked you. You nodded. “How’d it go?”
When you shook your head, his eyes softened. “Oh, hyung,” he whispered and pulled you into another hug. He beckoned me forward and pulled me into the embrace too. It felt warm – like a family.
“It’s going to be alright,” he said. “Everything’s going to be alright.”
I allowed myself to cry then. I was so afraid. I was so young and clueless. Sungjin pulled me impossibly closer because you were crying too. I cried harder because I knew then how frightened you must have been when you had stood up to them. I cried harder because I realized how painful it must be to you because you were closer to them then I was.
Once night came, Sungjin lent us his guest room. He was living with his girlfriend and I wondered why we couldn’t be that normal. That night when you crawled into the blanket next to me, I scooped you up into my arms. Your body was always warm against mine. You turned your head and kissed me. Everything was right again. I knew then that I never want to be normal if it meant that I couldn’t have you.
No matter how many times I stumble and fall, because I’m still standing, I realized that fighting for you will never be a chore. You fell asleep that night breathing onto my neck and your arms were wrapped in death grip around me, as if you were afraid that I would vanish. The strong you that were present that morning was non-existent. The Sungmin that you allowed me to see is the Sungmin without his mask. You were just another child in need of protection. I was proud that I was able to see that part of you. I was proud that even if you pretended to be strong, you would always need me. I was proud because I knew the real Sungmin behind his smile.
I smiled when you muttered my name under your breath. I am fine with being abnormal if I have you. This is a fight for me – for us. It is going to be a long fight but with your hands in mine, I will be able to do anything. Let it be- let it be us against the world.
Pairing: KyuMin
Rating: PG
Genre: Friendship, Romance, Angst
Summary: Kyuhyun and Sungmin decided to come clean to the members about their relationship. The reactions that they received weren't something pleasant to the ears.
Kyuhyun's POV
Nobody believed, nobody cared - because it was just us and them. From the start, it was just them asking but not understanding. “What are we doing? Why are we fighting so hard?” they asked. Asking, for them is easy. Understanding however, they don’t bother.
It doesn’t matter to me. It never mattered how they look at me –at us. Even if you allow me to redo history, I will still come back to you. Even if I am thrown another choice, I will still choose you.
It was raining on my birthday. It was 2007 when I took your hand and 2009, when we came clean. Standing hand in hand in front of 13 other men, we told them. I remember vividly how loud your voice rang, demanding attention. I remember clearly how you looked them in the eye and said with an air of confidence I didn’t know you had, “We’re dating.”
Only Ryeowook and Donghae stood up. They took your hand and pulled you into a hug. I didn’t let your hands go. However, I did shrink back when 11 other pair of eyes stared at us and our intertwined fingers.
“Why?” the first question hit me in the face.
You looked at me with those soft eyes of yours and my heart melted – because those eyes were for me. “I love him,” you said. Your eyes were still on me and I couldn’t look away.
“Min-” your best friend called you.
When your eyes left mine, I felt empty – as if I could be crumpled. “Yes?” you answered.
“I’ll talk to him,” he said – Hyukjae.
Hyukjae pulled you away and my eyes stared as your hands left mine as well. A tear fell. You looked back and smiled at me. Suddenly, the world was right again for just that small moment.
But when you left, even with Ryeowook and Donghae by my side, I felt small. I was small – the magnae. “It’s not right,” our leader told me. His voice was ice sharp and demanding. It wasn’t the same. It wasn’t as soft as your voice.
“Hyung,” both Ryeowook and Donghae said.
“You know it isn’t right,” Shindong spoke up. I almost cried. Donghae's hands around mine weren’t warm like yours.
“I love him,” I told them. Even now, I am ashamed that I couldn’t say it with the confidence that you have. “I love him so much, hyung.”
“You can’t,” Jungsu repeated. “Your mother-”
“She isn’t the one dating Sungmin,” Ryeowook snapped. Your eyes turned to your bestfriend and gave him a weak, grateful smile. “Even if you look at this again, it istheir choice. They are allowed to date. Even if you guys don’t approve, you don’t have to do this to them.”
“Hyung, what if it’s you?” Donghae asked in a small voice. “What if-”
“But it isn’t me!” Jungsu shouted. “I know I won’t do it! Even if I have a simple crush on another man, I would ignore it! It isn’t right!”
Donghae looked at our leader. He was so innocent and pure. I know then why you chose him of all people to be your roommate back then. He had his heart in the right place even before he knew it.
“I won’t leave him,” I said. “I can’t leave him. He’s my life and-”
“Enough,” Siwon said. Our bubbling Siwon, who was always so gentle and happy, had snapped at me. Despite my frightened heart, I stood my ground. I wasn’t going to lose you.
“You’re a Christian, hyung,” Henry said softly. His eyes were as frightened as mine. I didn’t know why.
“I know,” I answered him.
“Then why-”
“It was never a choice,” I cut across him. “Loving Sungmin was never a choice.”
They didn’t answer me. They merely stared again, as if looking through me. “I said no!” a shout came from inside Hyukjae's room. We turned our heads. It was your voice.
You came out a second later followed by a terrified yet angry Hyukjae. Donghae went over to stand beside Ryeowook as you neared us. When you took my hand, I breathed a sigh of relief. The members noticed.
“We told you because we didn’t want to lie – not to all of you,” you said. “But if I had known that the people we trust so dearly were this hateful, I wouldn’t have forced Kyuhyun into this. I am telling you – all of you. I am not going to leave Kyuhyun. Neither will he leave me. This, I have trust in him.”
I watched in awe as the gentle you grew angrier by the second. I watched as you proclaimed your love for me. A part of me hated myself because I couldn’t be as brave as you.
“Take him away from me and I’ll die,” you said. “I am not asking for your permission. I don’t need to know that you have approved of us to love him. I have loved him – from the very minute I saw him. You have no idea how it felt like to think that I lost him. You have no idea how painful it is for us. Even if you can’t accept it, ignore it.”
“Then why did you tell us?” Jungsu hissed. He was angry but an angered you couldn’t be beaten down.
“Because I trust- no, I trusted all of you,” you muttered. Your voice was soft but it had that venom in it that I saw the members flinched. “I must have had it all wrong, all along.”
“Yes,” Jungsu nodded. His eyes were glaring at me.
“Not Kyuhyun,” you shook your head. Your voice was suddenly calm that even I was frightened. “Kyuhyun was never a mistake. He will never be one. But you – all of you, I thought I knew you better.”
You gave Ryeowook and Donghae a small smile before you pulled me out of our dorm. I felt their eyes stared at our backs but you didn’t let me go. I heard Donghae's small sob as the door slammed shut. I was sure you did too. I saw your shoulders stiffened- something that always happens when you wanted to cry.
“Ming,” I said softly. You tightened your grip on my hand.
I wanted to ask where we were going but I decided that if it was with you, I wouldn’t care. And so, I followed you quietly. You didn’t let me pull my hand back even as we walked the streets. I should have been afraid, but I wasn’t.
You brought me over to your brother’s apartment. He was already waiting for us. I was confused. When the door closed behind me, your hands left mine as your brother flung himself at you. Sungjin was an angel in my eyes back then.
“You told them?” he asked you. You nodded. “How’d it go?”
When you shook your head, his eyes softened. “Oh, hyung,” he whispered and pulled you into another hug. He beckoned me forward and pulled me into the embrace too. It felt warm – like a family.
“It’s going to be alright,” he said. “Everything’s going to be alright.”
I allowed myself to cry then. I was so afraid. I was so young and clueless. Sungjin pulled me impossibly closer because you were crying too. I cried harder because I knew then how frightened you must have been when you had stood up to them. I cried harder because I realized how painful it must be to you because you were closer to them then I was.
Once night came, Sungjin lent us his guest room. He was living with his girlfriend and I wondered why we couldn’t be that normal. That night when you crawled into the blanket next to me, I scooped you up into my arms. Your body was always warm against mine. You turned your head and kissed me. Everything was right again. I knew then that I never want to be normal if it meant that I couldn’t have you.
No matter how many times I stumble and fall, because I’m still standing, I realized that fighting for you will never be a chore. You fell asleep that night breathing onto my neck and your arms were wrapped in death grip around me, as if you were afraid that I would vanish. The strong you that were present that morning was non-existent. The Sungmin that you allowed me to see is the Sungmin without his mask. You were just another child in need of protection. I was proud that I was able to see that part of you. I was proud that even if you pretended to be strong, you would always need me. I was proud because I knew the real Sungmin behind his smile.
I smiled when you muttered my name under your breath. I am fine with being abnormal if I have you. This is a fight for me – for us. It is going to be a long fight but with your hands in mine, I will be able to do anything. Let it be- let it be us against the world.